Santa or Not?
"Mom if Santa isn't real and I've been writing letters to him, well then is God real? Am I praying to someone/thing that is real?".
Anywho, I'm sure many of you may think I'm being ridiculous, but that is just what is going through my head. Dannys issue with Santa is more about receiving gifts from some guy no matter what. He feels it is something to be earned. He works hard and provides for his family and he wants the girls to know that gifts are to those who work hard and show respect. Or something along those lines. Anyways back to the story, so Elly asked me and Danny at separate times if Santa was real. I mentioned that he was once real and that his real name was Saint Nicholas. Well this brought on tears and consoling and my poor little girl in denial asked again is Santa real? I said Santa is real in everyone's hearts. Well we ended the conversation with: sure he's real. I felt horrible because you know I don't want to spoil her childhood and reason to hope and dream. Dannys conversation at a seperate time was almost identical. So Elly believes in Santa still and I'm not planning on ruining this. She is only five and since hey there really was a Saint Nicholas who did deliver gifts to children why not? And quite frankly this is sort of new thing for us. As you remember (maybe) last year we did visit Santa and write letters to him. So yeah, my views keep changing, my heart keeps turning and I'm constantly questioning what is the best to do with my girls. They are smart and sweet, and I love em.