Doing what is best for my Family

I used to read blogs every day. I would post as many comments as I could to be supportive and blog five times a week, as well link my post to Facebook. My it was draining, but I had a dream to eventually become a published author of something. And I did shoot for the stars....but when you give your all to one thing, another falls to the back burner.
My girls, just five and almost two were the victims. I found myself spending hours on the computer editing, posting several pictures, linking up to any blog I could find. I would ignore them for soo long till their tiny whiny voices cracked through. And instead of being joyful that they yearned, no needed my time and attention I lashed out

"Just a few more minutes! I'll be done soon! Go play! Out of the room! I'll be out soon!"

But five minutes always inevitably turned to twenty minutes, and in the end we wound up with an unhappy Mommy and girls. Un-necessary tears. My decisions needed to be re-evaluated, my motives analyzed. Why was I doing this again? Why was it important for me to be published author? I am blessed, I am a stay at home Momma, but I wasn't acting like it. Frustration turned to prayer, lots of it, and then a calm set in, perspective swelled my eyes. Seasons, it is all about seasons, a time to sow, a time to reap, a time to put my girls first and be the Momma I was meant to be. They grow so fast, I will miss their small giggles, their eagerness to wrap their bitty arms around me and whisper

"I love you Mommy."

Soon it will all be gone to fast. I'm not willing to give that up. So a media diet is what I have gone on. I still blog, about once a week, yes I am still here...but I don't really edit, nor do I post a zillion pictures and link up to anyone, not now. Someday I'm sure I will be back into the crazy-ness that is blogging, but for now my Season is to be with my kids, and I'm at peace with that. I just hope my small amount of followers is okay with this too and understand. And I hope you still read my blog!

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Danielle said…
Thanks so much! I'll have to check out your blog :-)
October 20, 2012 at 5:53 AM
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